undisclosed desires

it's very hard for me to take rejection, even over the phone, even from someone i don't know. (sometimes even over the internet, uh) sometimes i get embarrassed just by thinking of the call i made/received. once the call is made and over i just sit there, i analyze and ruminate what was said. like what tone it was said in and how i was precieved by the other person.

menneh, hehey, what can i do